English and Me

hey there..
i got an idea of writing about english and me when i saw fateen post about her experience of learning english.
actually i don't have the great experience with this language. the only thing i can say is i learn english from my sister..yes..i love my sister. she is an Eng teacher and she taught me english since she was a trainee teacher same like me now.
during my primary school, i am one of the best students and i do love english. i can spell pineapple when my friends can't. i can ask for teacher's permission to go to the toilet fluently. i won the public speaking contest. i represent my school on story telling competition and so on.
however....
the great memories just happen during my primary school..
i can't do well when i entered secondary school..i don't know why but maybe because of so many competitors and my new friends can speak english fluently and better than me... i became low profile and shame to speak in front of others..i also not good in writing and my english was so bad. i remembered the 2 foreign student from australia sent by MARA in my college. they sent there to make students of MAJUSCOP speak english more frequent and fluent, but i never said anything to them because i afraid of doing mistake.. besides i don't have chances to speak to them since they always walked with some people who like "mencapab" and felt like they are very good and only them can be friend with the two "mat salleh"...oh i really don't like that fellows..
ok back to the story..
i started love english through a song that one of my friend use to sing it everyday..the song is COMPLICATED by Arvil Lavinge.. i still remember she (PUTERI LIYANA MEGAT NASIR) thought me that song. she printed for me the lyrics and let me sing together with her... i love her until now eventhough i haven't met her for years since she studying at KOREA now. i really miss her..since then i always sing one of the part that i can memories..
another story about english song is Because of you by Kelly Clarkson .. i like that song very much when it was very popular some time ago.. i searched for the lyrics and tried to sing it.. one day when i sing the song, one of my fren said to me "hey, u sing like a javanese version". i stop singing and until now i am too afraid to sing english song in front of others.. i also not really like english song since then.. i afraid to speak in front of others because traumatic with the criticism...
however, now i got my new strength..i can speak in front of others even not really fluent. i'm not shame anymore because here i know everyone is the same and i'm accepted as who am i..and i accept my fren as who they are. they never laugh at me if i make mistake when wrongly speaking in english..but for the song part i still dun have enough strength to sing eng song..